Fosh's Venting Corner

[Barrow-wight aka MELLON]

Cindy, I do understand ... my life has trained me in great amount of patience ... and it is true that my life experience taught me also that if I really wanted something badly and persistently it came true at the end, though often after many years and after taking many detours ... If this tendency lasts though, then I shall keep my hopes, lol.

Well, we shall anyway ...

When it comes to changes in ones life, my personal experience is also that not always "forceful" steps towards change bring the desired results ... it takes fairly hard work to find balance between "acting through actions " and "acting through non-action" (if you understand what I mean) ... for sometimes better results come out of smaller gradual steps ... yet that is what takes so much patience.

Anyway, I keep my fingers crossed to all your efforts ... I somewhat feel (and I am not the only one ) that this year will be good for changes in our lives though !

[Fosh01]

Arse,arrrrrgh!!!!........arrrghhh!!!............ ....here I go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't wannna be here...........bollocks....there change that if you will...........but it's RAINING AGAIN........and I Hate my life.........well most of it..................I get like this on a friday night.....so I do!!!

[Cindy]

Fosh, I'm going to bend you over my knee and spank you good if you don't stop all this stuff!! We love you and you know it, and I don't know what happens to make you get this way, but would love to help again if I can. Given the card you said you'd received from me, you should know this by now!! Let others help you out and please send emails or make phone calls when you see this coming....it makes it easier for us to help you manage. I'm on at the station tonight and tomorrow night late, so please FIND ME!!! We'll sort this out together again.

Love you my friend,

Cindy

[Cindy]

Guess what Fosh....realizing you're exactly right my friend....the world we live in is total sh** and why in the hell I care one way or another, I'll never know!!!! Friend, find as much as you can there about schools and GET ME THE HELL OUT OF THE USA!!! We'll spend countless day drinking and bemoaning our troubles and everyone will not want to be around us.....Guess we're not that different after all!

[Fosh01]

;D Don't worry too much, after the little drinkies session I decided to go home and sleep it off, the sun is shining and things aren't so bad. Had a chat with a certain chap (Mark) and things just seem a lot better....I get down, we all get down but you know that with the people around me things pull themselves around again. I actually only have one real gripe at the moment and that is that my right eye has closed for some reason and it is a SORE as hell!! Oh yes & the MONSTER hangover I had yesterday! As for the rest, life goes on!! But I still wish I knew why this bloody eye is so swollen!!

[Cindy]

Fosh, I'm so glad you're better today and have so much to be happy for. I met Mark yesterday, and if he knew how much good he's done, he'd be . As for my situation, I woke up with quite a headache as well because I tried mixing too much alcohol last night, trying to forget how much my life hurts. I've awoke this morning to another dreary day here with no sunshine and realization that I have 48 hours with someone who I'd rather not be with, beginning a miserable week at a job I hate. But you know, I'll survive....have to because if I don't, I don't have there to look forward to. Anyway, not going to start today this way and have to live it throughout. Must go now...take care.